You cannot really disconnect yourself from the passionate, desirous being that you are. It was with enormous clarity that you came forth into this body, and that's why when you try to hold your desire down, it keeps coming up....
Your cork will always float unless you are holding it down.
We all have things we want to DO or BE that we have put on hold in order to maintain the lifestyle to which we are currently accustomed. We may have accepted what was expected and established ourselves in a life that is no longer fulfilling or, perhaps never was. Now we find that we have too much invested to stop and acknowledge the nagging part of us that wants more or, at the very least, something different.
Whatever fragment of you that is not being honoured, will make itself known to you in some way. You can only disconnect from those parts of yourself for so long before you begin to feel the effects of holding back. You have a reason for being here, but by keeping parts of yourself hidden, you won't be open to your destiny. What is it that you are longing for, that you feel you missed out on?
When was the last time you felt passion for something.....anything? It's all there, you haven't lost it, it's still retrievable. Your passion is waiting for you to honour yourself and allow it to, finally, be the top priority.
The greatest act of courage is to be and own all that you are. Without apology, without any excuses and without any masks to cover the truth of who you truly are.